Thursday, July 12, 2007

crap

remember this post? Well I just got a call that my friend, Dann, passed away last night. The cancer in his lungs, found only a few weeks ago, spread like wildfire throughout his body, his neck, and into his bones. His passing was quiet and swift and he was was calm. I am deeply saddened by this news as he was a long time friend and collegue for nearly 20 years.

Thank you, again, for all your thoughts and prayers. The family (and me) are grateful that this went fast and his suffering wasn't prolonged.

I got the call that shit was really bad on Monday. Dann's son left a message. A message I wasn't able to return. Not sure why, just couldn't call him. I wasn't ready to say goodbye. So now I'm beating myself up for not calling back, not going to see Dann. I pray he knows I was thinking of him and just how much adore (do I write adored now?) him. Anyway, I'll miss him. a lot.

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ETA - Noah has it figured out. He just came asking for something and saw me crying. Naturally, he asked what's wrong. Here's how it went.
Him: Mom, what's wrong?
Me: Oh. I just found out a friend of mine died.
Him: oh, how? heart attack?
Me: No honey, he had cancer.
Him: Oh ....pause....It's okay mom. He's right here. (motioning to the space to my left) He's right next to you.

9 comments:

angieinpink said...

i'm sorry michelle. that is so hard to loose someone so close & personal to you.

word to noah's thoughts though...it's a good thing we all know he's in a happy place.

i'll pray for you & his fam, i reckon.

Kerry said...

That was really sweet of Noah, and he is right. I'm sorry to hear about your friend.

I'm sure he knows how you feel inside, so please don't beat yourself up about not calling. We all deal with these things in different ways. He knew you loved him and a long friendship is proof.

I'll keep you and his family in my thoughts and prayers.

Dust and Maddy said...

Michelle --
I'm so sorry. Noah is so sweet, I'm glad he could help you feel a little better. Just feel peace in your heart and rely on your faith to get you through this. Eternal perspective is one of the few comforts I've ever found when someone passes.

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karen said...

I'm so sorry!

Shanna said...

ahhhhhh...I am tearing up. Kids just know. They are still fresh from God. Gotta love them. Sorry about your friend Michelle. Take comfort in knowing you'll see him again someday. Prayers for you friend.

Molove said...

I know you know this, but it's worth saying anyway. He's at peace now. It's always those that are left behind that suffer the most. He's in a much better place, even though it's really hard. I hope you feel better today. It does get better as the days pass.

I'll be thinking of you. I'm so sorry about this.

scrapmom4 said...

Noah is so smart. ((hugs))
Les.

laura said...

so sorry about your friend. what a sweet boy you have! (((hugs)))